You weren't there for me, you didn't care for me.
You didn't hug me, you
didn't love me.
You didn't provide for me, you didn't need me.
Why on earth did you seed me?
You never bounced me on your knee,
you never told me I was a Queen.
You never lifted me in the air,
your self you would not share.
No security, no affection.
No adoration, no protection.
The hole in my heart never stops growing,
because the love of a
Daddy, I'm still not knowing.
"Daddy loves his girls", I was always told.
Now I'm suppose to believe that I am too damn old.
To still need the love that I didn't receive as a child.
When the need in me as a child still runs wild.
No, I don't hate you but I do not love
you. Not like a girl should love her daddy.
How can I love what I never had, pretend
to be happy when I'm really sad.
The past is the past and that I should forgive.
When not even a little bit of regret do you show.
You act as if I should smile and just act as if I know.
But all I know is that love you never show.
My father you may be, my daddy I'll never know.
The man I see only cares for himself.
Never reaching out to nourish or help anyone else.
This is a fact that will probably never change.
So I'll continue to live in this world, as a fatherless daddy's girl.
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